Wednesday, January 18, 2012

6 months

This little man is 6 months old. Chaz is such a great baby! We have kept him on a schedule and because of it, he is happy, fun, and a social baby! We usually always know why he is fussy, if he ever is. If you are going to have a baby, be sure to read 'Healthy Sleep Habbits, Happy Child' and 'Baby Wise', and 'Happiest Baby on the Block'. They are miraculous, and I swear by them!

We have many nick names for Chaz. Monkey, Punkin, Z, Chazzy, Baby Traz ( from Lucy). He has been rolling over since he was 4 months. He hates to be on his tummy. He's feet are like a monkeys, and if anything gets near them, he grabs it and hangs on! So funny! He sleeps 12 hours at night and takes 3 naps during the day. I tried to switch to only 2, but he gets way too tired. Anyone else have this happen? Loves any kind of food we give him. Loves to hang out in the salon while I work. Quite the womanizer all ready! Loves his bouncer, and if he goes to the bathroom while in it, it goes straight out of his diaper and...WHAT A MESS! I'm talking, all the way up to his neck! Nasty. Loves to take baths. Loves attention. Just started spitting and blowing. Quite the little chatter box, once he gets going! Already trying to out talk his dad!

So far, having a baby is the most wonderful thing! I can't wait to play with him every waking minute. He's so cute when we go and get him from waking up. We pretty much take him every where we go and it never seams to be a problem, as long as we keep him on his nap schedule. How did we get so lucky?

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Uncle Rollie

Last Tues, Jan 3rd, My Dad's brother, my Uncle Rollin unexpectedly passed away. I still can't believe it happened, and especially the day after we returned home from my Grammy's funeral in St George. I have been very emotional as of late. I feel drained and yet so thankful. I also feel overwhemed and guilty. I think of my young cousins and ask why I'm so lucky to get to have my dad, and have him able to come to my wedding and see my kids and keep making memories with him. I know and understand this is part of life and what we agreed to. I look at them and how strong they are and how they deal with this, and I don't know how they can. I made all these new year's resolutions, and now not one of them matters, except to be better, and to make more of an effort to show my loved ones that I love them and to spend as much time as possible with them. Hearing how everyone says they remember my Uncle, is so humbling to me. Everyone said how kind and nonjudgemental he is, and what a hard worker, and thoughtful man he is. How he's so charitable. I now have these goals, and to hopefully have people remember me this way too. I have the type of personality where sometimes I feel like I need to let people know what I think, if I feel they are wrong. I also don't let people walk all over me. I know that sometimes I can be mean and I do things that I end up wishing that I didn't. I am judgemental. I now want to change these things about myself. I want to have more empathy for people and their way of doing things. I want to have more grace. I want to do more things for others, because I know I am very self involved. I want to not feel the need to be competitive with wants and needs. This has also made me feel so fortunate to have everything I have, and really family is what is most important. These are all of my dad's siblings. These are some of my cousins

Me and my Grandma Lancaster ( notice, she is rockin DC shoes :)

Grandpa Lancaster, Chaz, and me

April, Andrew, Me, Deon, G pa and Gma Lancaster

I never thought the new year would start out this way. But though it has been hard and rigid, I'm glad it's made me have a better attitude and admiration for life!

The Holidays

Right before Christmas, My dear Grammy Nelson passed away. She was 83. She was beautiful, kind, courageous, thoughtful, happy, funny, sweet, wise, thoughful, strong, witty, pleasant, and so dear to my heart. She had been living at my mom's this past year because she was struggling and because of it, I got to spend much more time with her. She has been in so much pain, and went through so much the last year of her life, so for her to be relieved of her pain is such a blessing, yet I miss her so very much. I'm so glad she got to meet Chaz. She was living in St. George befor she moved here and if she didn't come, I don't know that they would've ever met. I'm so happy that she gets to be with my Grandpa now! When he died, a little bit of my grandma did too. I believe in gardian angels and know they will be watching over us! It was too much fun having a baby at Christmas! He is so spoiled. He got fishing waders from Travis's mom, and she made them! By far the best present for Trav and Chaz!